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Becoming Someone You Don’t Want To Be
Sometimes, your subconscious guides you in a direction you don’t want to go
I think some people will read this headline and think I’ve suddenly become a serial killer, but no, I haven’t become a serial killer.
I’m talking about the angst that comes to a lot of people when who they become isn’t the person they want to become, whether it’s through personal circumstances or other external factors.
When I think of who I want to be and who I want other people to see me as, I want them to see someone who is really kind, generous, loyal, and devoted. I want them to see someone who isn’t afraid to take a stand for what he believes in and someone who doesn’t adhere to rigidity, dogma, and politics when making judgments about people. For me personally, I wanted to be someone who lives freely and makes a lot of sacrifices for causes he believes in.
This Christmas, however, I’ve had a chance to reflect on the person I wanted to become and the person I’m becoming. I think we will always fall short of lofty and high-in-the-clouds ideals for ourselves. This is not a fairy-tale world, and we need to make compromises to live in it.
And I think we always have control to rechart ourselves and our lives and that the people we are are never fixed in…
