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I Learned English at 4 Years Old — Now, My English Is Much Better Than My First Language

I essentially forgot my first language

Ryan Fan
7 min readFeb 13, 2022
Photo by Amador Loureiro on Unsplash

I always struggle when I think about what my native language is.

If you met me, you would think I was born, bred, and raised in the United States, which is 99% true. I am a native English speaker. English is my best language.

I was born in America. I teach English, in America, and have passed all my licensing exams for teaching English. I write articles in English.

You get the point. Even though I have a Chinese surname, English is very much my first language, and I consider it my native language. My Chinese has a horrible American, New York accent. I can’t really read and write in Chinese well. When I communicate with Chinese members of my family, I need to use the pronunciation keyboard, which is a sign of lower proficiency in the language than an average speaker.

The Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines a “native speaker” as “a person who learned to speak the language of the place where he or she was born as a child.” For me, that means I’m a native English speaker.

However, English was not my first language. My parents spoke Chinese at home, and my first word was “mom” in Chinese.

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Ryan Fan
Ryan Fan

Written by Ryan Fan

Believer, Baltimore City IEP Chair, and 2:35 marathon runner. Diehard fan of “The Wire.”

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